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Alex Zander’s DIARY OF A DAMNED MAN

“Diary of a Damned Man” is a regular personal blog and update column written by Alex Zander, the founder and publisher of M.K. Ultra Magazine.

Rather than focusing on the infamous CIA mind-control program, the column functions as an ongoing, personal log of Zander’s daily life, localized experiences, and ties to the music scene.

• Personal Life and Local Happenings: Zander shares casual, raw updates about daily routines, cycling, and hanging out at neighborhood spots in Chicago—such as grabbing drinks or dining at local staples such as Tac Quick, El Palmar or El Mariachi

• Music Subculture and Media Updates: The posts frequently tie into the rock ‘n’ roll, goth, industrial, and alternative subcultures that the magazine has covered since its founding in 1995. He shares commentary on media releases, like music physical editions and vinyl shipments.

• Lyric-Driven Openings: Entries are typically framed with high-energy rock or darkwave song lyrics that set a rebellious tone for each update

She rides. Let loose upon the world. She is the night. And my loneliness in bondage. She’s black and sin runs down her back. She rides from the daylight in chains.

My friend Charlie is a chef at the very new (soft opening tonight 8/19/2026) and invited me and Emily to attend the friends and family dinner at TARRA and SURA Thai restaurant in River North.… Read More »She rides. Let loose upon the world. She is the night. And my loneliness in bondage. She’s black and sin runs down her back. She rides from the daylight in chains.

Eager for action and hot for the game.The coming attraction, the drop of a name. They knew all the right people, they took all the right pills. They threw outrageous parties, they paid heavenly bills.

TUESDAY 8/11/2026: The National Weather Service has confirmed Tuesday morning’s storms in the Chicago area produced at least three tornadoes. The NWS said an EF-1 tornado was confirmed in southern Cook County near the Will County border… Read More »Eager for action and hot for the game.The coming attraction, the drop of a name. They knew all the right people, they took all the right pills. They threw outrageous parties, they paid heavenly bills.

Jeff Windisch 1969-2016

Sad news to report as Emperors and Elephants guitarist Jeff Windisch passed away after playing an opening set for the George Lynch-led outfit Lynch Mob on Saturday, Aug. 13. Lynch Mob cut short their show after Windisch, who… Read More »Jeff Windisch 1969-2016

It wasn’t easy, it was hard as hell. You didn’t get luck in a wishing well. Never worked so hard, had so much pain. Wouldn’t change for anything.

Melita visited the Empire State Building and met KANG KONG! HERE WE GO AGAIN: Chicago faces an unsettled week with high humidity and repeated rounds of potential severe thunderstorms carrying risks of damaging winds and… Read More »It wasn’t easy, it was hard as hell. You didn’t get luck in a wishing well. Never worked so hard, had so much pain. Wouldn’t change for anything.

Well those drifter’s days are past me now. I’ve got so much more to think about deadlines and commitments.What to leave in, what to leave out. I’m older now but still runnin’ against the wind.

Tuesday 7/28/2026 Storms hit Chicago area, downing trees, delaying flights, damaging homes and leaving 300,000 without power Tornado and severe thunderstorm warnings expired earlier in the afternoon after wind gusts brought down tree limbs and… Read More »Well those drifter’s days are past me now. I’ve got so much more to think about deadlines and commitments.What to leave in, what to leave out. I’m older now but still runnin’ against the wind.

Soon I discovered that this rock thing was true, Jerry Lee Lewis was the devil. Jesus was an architect previous to his career as a prophet. All of a sudden, I found myself in love with the world. So there was only one thing that I could do……

This episode breaks down the pre MK ULTRA formative years (1988-1993) of the forthcoming book The M.K. ULTRA STORY: “A Savage Journey Through The Sweaty Underbelly of Rock n’ Roll Subculture” is the forthcoming coffee… Read More »Soon I discovered that this rock thing was true, Jerry Lee Lewis was the devil. Jesus was an architect previous to his career as a prophet. All of a sudden, I found myself in love with the world. So there was only one thing that I could do……

Little girls with the four red lips. Never knew it could be like this. You put me in a situation. Goin’ through soft core mutation.

Vaness at Montrose Beach. The only woman, in my opinion, on earth that can rock skinny jeans View from the rear of Casa Diablo facing east toward the lake: Roller Coaster Week afterthoughts Monday July… Read More »Little girls with the four red lips. Never knew it could be like this. You put me in a situation. Goin’ through soft core mutation.

Got another empty bottle and another empty bed. Ain’t too young to admit it. And I’m not too old to lie. I’m just another empty head.

One day away from the 2026 Argyle Night Market – Opening Night! Mark your calendars for EVERY Thursday in July and August starting July 2nd (5-9pm weekly), and stay tuned for more details including vendor… Read More »Got another empty bottle and another empty bed. Ain’t too young to admit it. And I’m not too old to lie. I’m just another empty head.

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