Alex Zander’s DIARY OF A DAMNED MAN

Spring/Summer Chicago. Yesterday in the 80’s and sunny. Today kicking off the weekend rain and overcast. Yesterday 5/16/2023 approx. 5 PM Pneumonia Front sends temps plummeting: As the evening sets in, temperatures will rapidly drop… Read More »I can’t imagine growin’ old with anyone. Marching to a different drum, I hear a different song. I swear I love ’em all, I don’t care if they’re small, I don’t care if they’re tall, I love ’em anyway.

Had one of the most amazing days Sunday 5/7/2023 and Ron Onesti bought us (AZ, Amy Abramite and Bob Hoeksema) dinner at CLUB ARCADA a cool 1920s Speakeasy with an original feel of the Roaring… Read More »Let’s fly way up to the clouds. Away from the maddening crowds. We can sing in the glow of a star that I know of. Where lovers enjoy peace of mind. Let us leave the confusion and all disillusion behind. Just like birds of a feather, a rainbow together we’ll find.

Sunday April 30th I was on the Red Line after an appointment and bumped into Max who was on his way to a movie. We stopped at Tac Quick and had a drink. I still… Read More »Danger in the rear view mirror, There’s trouble in the wind. Madness bringing up the rear, The menace is loose again. She looks so fuckin’ good So sexy and so frail. Something got the bite on me, I’m goin’ straight to hell.

Planning to attend this years EXXOTICA event Detroit Jason and I decided ahead of time this would likely be or last. I have a very good feeling it will be Larry’s last for certain. My… Read More »Feel the fire, feel my love inside you it’s so right. There’s the sound and the smell of love in my mind. I’m a toy, come and play with me, say the word now. Wrap your legs around mine and ride me tonight.

I’m feeling sick of thisI need to get awayI’m making no progressCan’t find a will to stay So just forget meAnd watch me drift awayAnother place another timeI’ll be another faceless name But I will… Read More »This city, this place, Is burning down from the inside, an eternal flame. In the hallway where I carve my name, Only to watch it burn away to ashes, nothing left to say.

I can’t remember how this got startedBut I can tell you exactly how it will end Every day is exactly the sameEvery day is exactly the sameThere is no love here and there is no… Read More »I can feel their eyes are watching
In case I lose myself again
Sometimes, I think I’m happy here
Sometimes, yet I still pretend

March 27 through the end of April which is when I’m updating this, Sunday April 30th 2023, was a virtual roller coaster ride of emotions, health, productivity affecting my life personally and professionally and that… Read More »We’ve only reached the third day of a seven-day binge. And I can already see your name disintegrating from my lips.

I woke at 5:45 AM on Sunday morning March 19th to get ready for another long day. This time I’d be taking an 8:30 AM train from Union Station to the end of the BNSF… Read More »On the silver screen,
you’re a part of every fantasy.
You gave me a dream,
that keeps me here with you.

A week before I planned to visit the The Art Institute of Chicago to view the exhibit Salvador Dalí: The Image Disappears I messaged Ashley who lives downtown but also loves art as much asI… Read More »In a bar that’s always closing. In a world where people shout. I don’t wanna talk this over. I don’t wanna talk it out. I was quite impressed until I hit the floor. Isn’t that what friends are for? Pain looks great on other people. That’s what they’re for. I was wrong.

Oy Vey! I had a very big burst of creative energy on Monday after work. I spent over 4 hours scouring an old computer for photos I’ve lost when my Facebook got hacked in June… Read More »Her eyes were cobalt red. Her voice was cobalt blue. I see no purple light, Crashing out of you. So just walk on in. Flowers on the razor wire.