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Alex Zander’s DIARY OF A DAMNED MAN

“Diary of a Damned Man” is a regular personal blog and update column written by Alex Zander, the founder and publisher of M.K. Ultra Magazine.

Rather than focusing on the infamous CIA mind-control program, the column functions as an ongoing, personal log of Zander’s daily life, localized experiences, and ties to the music scene.

• Personal Life and Local Happenings: Zander shares casual, raw updates about daily routines, cycling, and hanging out at neighborhood spots in Chicago—such as grabbing drinks or dining at local staples such as Tac Quick, El Palmar or El Mariachi

• Music Subculture and Media Updates: The posts frequently tie into the rock ‘n’ roll, goth, industrial, and alternative subcultures that the magazine has covered since its founding in 1995. He shares commentary on media releases, like music physical editions and vinyl shipments.

• Lyric-Driven Openings: Entries are typically framed with high-energy rock or darkwave song lyrics that set a rebellious tone for each update

Radio video, boogie with a suitcase! Y’all living in a disco, forget about the rat race. Let’s do the milkshake, selling like a hot cake. Try some, buy some, fee-fi-fo-fum.

“…her skilled fingers flying over the keys and her rangey, honeyed voice, clear as crystal, pretty as a stained glass window, carrying the audience into the ether, as an audible cloud, heaven bound. Patrons around… Read More »Radio video, boogie with a suitcase! Y’all living in a disco, forget about the rat race. Let’s do the milkshake, selling like a hot cake. Try some, buy some, fee-fi-fo-fum.

“Set out runnin’ but I take my time. A friend of the devil is a friend of mine. If I get home before daylight. Just might get some sleep tonight. Ran into the devil, babe, he loaned me twenty bills. Spent the night in Utah in a cave up in the hills.”

Tom T keeps cranking out AI Animated videos and songs regarding our days in Pittsburgh back in 1993/94 which were wild and untamed days. No rules. I was pretty much on a death trip till… Read More »“Set out runnin’ but I take my time. A friend of the devil is a friend of mine. If I get home before daylight. Just might get some sleep tonight. Ran into the devil, babe, he loaned me twenty bills. Spent the night in Utah in a cave up in the hills.”

I pulled into Nazareth, was feelin’ about half past dead. I just need some place where I can lay my head. “Hey, mister, can you tell me where a man might find a bed?” He just grinned and shook my hand, “no” was all he said.

Back in 2016/2017 some frat types I worked with at a firm in the west loop really made me feel like a reject despite how good I was for the company and my brother posted… Read More »I pulled into Nazareth, was feelin’ about half past dead. I just need some place where I can lay my head. “Hey, mister, can you tell me where a man might find a bed?” He just grinned and shook my hand, “no” was all he said.

Movin’ around I get in trouble. When I’m feelin’ so low and out of my mind. Babe, I don’t wanna burst your bubble. Girl, you know the reason why ’cause, I’m snowblind, I can’t see a thing….

Little did I know that the snow would continue to hammer us after I shot Eternal Darkness at Graceland Cemetery. It was a long cold but not too cold week in early December 2025 AT… Read More »Movin’ around I get in trouble. When I’m feelin’ so low and out of my mind. Babe, I don’t wanna burst your bubble. Girl, you know the reason why ’cause, I’m snowblind, I can’t see a thing….

Turkey for the girls and turkey for the boys. My favorite kind of pants are corduroys. Gobble gobble goo and Gobble gobble gickelI wish turkey only cost a nickel.

Last year I spent the Thanksgiving weekend in Indianapolis and while I was away Melita expressed her desire to have a traditional American Thanksgiving so I promised her I would and I delivered. Preparation began… Read More »Turkey for the girls and turkey for the boys. My favorite kind of pants are corduroys. Gobble gobble goo and Gobble gobble gickelI wish turkey only cost a nickel.

A WORK IN PROGRESS: She’s the mistress of unseen forces. A clever girl.. she’s a cunning sorceress. She will poison your body your mind and your soul. She has a million ways to make you lose control. Her mind is full of traps and schemes. She’s an evil genius.. the girl of your dreams.

On October 30th 2025 I returned to Tampa Florida to see teh latest incarnation of one of my very favorite bands THE ELECTRIC HELLFIRE CLUB along with my friend Jackie and it turned into four… Read More »A WORK IN PROGRESS: She’s the mistress of unseen forces. A clever girl.. she’s a cunning sorceress. She will poison your body your mind and your soul. She has a million ways to make you lose control. Her mind is full of traps and schemes. She’s an evil genius.. the girl of your dreams.

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